I missed Steve today. I thought about him just about everywhere I went. There is literally nowhere that I can go that I don't think of him and miss him. He's my "phone boyfriend" now, and it sure is weird. I think I miss being held the most. I miss feeling his arms around me. I feel like a ship on a huge, open sea right now...drifting alone. Most of the time, I can shove the feelings aside with various other projects and things I have to do, but sometimes when I am alone, it all creeps up on me. Tonight, Alex said "Take me to see Steve, Mamma. I wanna see Steve....okay?" I just gathered him up and held him, and I told him that Steve was still gone on his "trip". Sigh.